no longer there
comes in
goes out
how ;long can someone take this.
myself
too much than i probably deserved.
they take a part of you with them
it takes time for it to return
you can almost get used to it
luckily i have life, body, and present
makes me want to live
and that is a beautiful thing.
pain
misery
repeated
couldn’t and didn’t want to think anymore.
fear others
fear family
fear speaking
winter coats
long for something and nothing at all
love snow
love wind.
sitting
staring at each other
light shines thru basement side window
yellow light
hot probably summer
both agree
start kissing
long time
keep going
instinctively as little boys can know how
share each other
small tight buttcheeks
both blonde hair
love and share each other again
no recollection to how many times
or how many more or when.
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outside
morning
pine trees and tree branches
we both kiss
we share each other
looking around
bright overcast sky
looking down and up
probably september or october
little bodies
leaves
kitchen window.
